i just came back from the movies... there's nothing to do at home and that particular movie.. i had wanted to watch since it was released.. i had finally watched it.. yay...

tomorrow, i have a two-day camp in a bungalow.. not much but, i am not looking forward to camps.. perhaps it's because i am not an outdoor person? or i hate staying somewhere in which it is not in my room? that i have completely no clue... the thought of me having a day or so without my electronics items is mentally torturing and mentally scaring me out... =.=

i wonder why.. but when i had camps in secondary school, i am not that freaked out as compared to now... =.= friends? or perhaps it's the activities that is arranged ahead? @_@ questions and worries.. though i know, i can never get to answer and clear my doubt, there's no point worrying... not that i can help. =.=

at last, one final esposide of a four-part movie had been released... due to the sad fact that torrents is monitored, i had to watch it online... no complains... but however.. i wished that the ending is a sad ending... not a happy ending... =.= why do they like to create happy endings? goddess...~ they can just do me a favour and create a sad ending... make EVERYONE die... MUAHAHAHAHA~!

man... i sound damn evil.. =_=

speaking of my camp, i had not pack my items and gotten ready for the day... talk about last minute.. i am soooo not looking forward to it. the camp location is damn near my house but because of the public transport that i had to take and travel there, it is damn far... sweat... no wonder people often say this..' so near yet so far'

how ironic... that totally fits for me.. =.=

should i be sad or happy? i have a problematic moblie phone.. and in two days one night camp... my phone will definately die upon me. how to contact my parents to come and fetch me? >.> sigh... sunday is a family day in my family terms... if i were to go back home.. i will NOT go out again... i am out of energy.. i rather bathe, rest and sleep. going out and enjoying time can wait..

i am seeking comfort with my laptop and using it partly to kill time.. once again, i had been defeated badly by that idiotic game... =.= talk about nuisance.. GRRRR~! it's making my blood boil and it can actually do me a favour by actually, make it simpler for me.. however, sad to say.. it's increasing the difficulty level... what the?! #-.- this really knows how to press my buttons... =.= irritating

soon, my holidays are ending... i wonder is it because of the school's re-opening blues or what... i am somehow moody and my mood swings are like very unpredictable... i can tell i am emotional or rather, i should say moody... and plus... noise pollution and some irritants which aggravate me more. sigh...~

i seriously need to think and reconsider if i am really sticking into that cca further... wise, i am spending money and my presence is not there and i am often not there. =.=

i just went to view my latest and recently updated timetable... and honestly... i had to say, i am STRESSED just by looking at it. there's an increase by one subject.. not that it affect much.. but however, the subjects that are being taught, has more involvement in mathematics. sigh~ i escaped from collage so that i don't need to study further mathematics and i went into teritary education to study engineering mathematics.. wow~ which is better? >_> i don't want so much mathematics in my life and i see them everyday, every moment of my life.

there's like electrical technology(what's the difference with electronics? goddess), workshop practice(not much brain work.. i hope~), computer programme(this sounds scary... engineering in computer? eeek~!), engineering materials(memorizing work... oh boy~), critical reasoning skills(debate?! do engineers argue? sweat.. -.-) and finally~~ character development(ahhh~ reminds me the good old days in st. anthony's but... if possible, i rather stay at home)..

there's like almost no room for me to breathe~! i understand why they split the groups into two.. A and B.. one is more tedious the latter is damn relax.. when they switch, people can get to relax and the latter can get to work hard, instead of all doing the same thing; studying the same thing at the same time putting loads of burden onto the teachers.

hmmm, however, i like to be in the tedious group in the beginning part of the year. why? because it is easier for me to plan out my timetable and also it is easier to organise my time. if there's a sudden and drastic change in my life, i can't take it.. and i would have to undergo mood swings again. =.= a creature of habit.. that i have to admit.. ahaha~