sigh~! i am lost in the way of life.... in fact, i can't seem to find my direction. am lost in the roadway of life. i really don't know what i want to do.

today, i thought again about my course. honestly, i am thinking to just leave it as it be. ahaha~ i am going to study this till i get my masters. such long way. that's the only goal i have, in fact. to get a masters, but i have no clue on what masters to get. =.=

i need a guidance. i just someone to guild me, lead me out of my lost directions.

i am rather slack these days. even with my books, stories and games dumped in front of me, i don't have the mood to touch them. there's no drive in me to keep me going. some catalyst, please?

oh~~ i went to see some blogs yesterday, and by reading some of those strangers' blog... they made me think, or rather feel as if i am reading my friends' blogs. ahaha~ some of them, write or talk like my friends. i mean, when u blog something down, you will pen down your feelings and thoughts.. it's not formal nor is there a format to it.. right? that's why... i was like reading yesterday and saying aloud.. 'ah! this resemble to so and so...' or 'she reminds me of this person..' and etc.. ah~~~~ the good old times...

i think i am getting sick.. my neck is feeling stiff and my throat is feeling off. these days, it's raining like there's no business. it'll stop after chinese new year. however, i would hope that the rains would somehow balance out. instead of cramp up all during one period and have the shine during the next period.

my bedroom is undergoing a serious make-over. some feng-sui shifu came over to my house one fine morning and made comments about my home; the worst of them all is my room. comment and comment as if there's no tomorrow! grrr~ 'cause of that, i got to change my sleeping position, studying position, reading position.. and where i place and keep all my items!!! what the?!?! =.= that man.. not only intrupted my beauty sleep but he too, intrupted my peaceful and mundane lifestyle. now my bedroom made me feel as if i am sleeping in some hospital. sigh~!

i just found out some of my old friends' blogs and guess what? they cheated my feelings!!!! T_T i created blogspot 'cause in the past they used it. now, they are all using a different account, only my old schoolmates are using them. plus, i opened blogger account due to the fact that they use blogger... sigh~~~~ they like to torture me. i am like playing a wild goose chase with them. =.=