i am very bored. i have nothing to do. so bored, that i have spent four hours of my life, napping away, doing nothing. i have read, finished two thick books in which i have borrowed from my sister, in a day. that, i had shocked my sisters, in which i see in reason why. i am a bookworm in the past, only that now, i had switch my addiction from books to fanfictions much to the delight to my parents. now that the fanfictions quality is deproving, and it's not updating at which i am digesting, i think i might go back to my usual hobby. back to my topic, my sister forbid my from reading the third book, fearing that i might catch up with her, as there are six books in the series and she's currently reading her friend's copy of the third book. i wonder why she does not want to read her own copy. =_=

i caught this interesting phrase in which my friend wrote in her msn messenger. 'Sex is the way women control men. If they knew that we liked sex as much as they as they do, we'll never get jewellery again!' i was sweating and laughing when i was reading that comment. it has been awhile since i had seen such a open-minded statment; and yes, i'd like to see more of it. man~ if i were to put that in my msn messenger, that would arouse more comments from my classmates. i already put up loads of broken-up love statments or sad tragic love statments on my msn messenger and they stare at me when i was in school as if i was some love sick fool. i made it clear to them, that i had no boyfriend, i am no strings attached. oh boy, i am sick and tired of those...'ooooo, cheryl... who's, your boyfriend?' and stuff like those. they are sick. they, gross me out. 'cause i have this tendency, to talk to my close friend most of the time, and have a close bonding with my mobile, they confessed that i am a dyke even though, i came clean with them. no, they would not believe me and after some time, they are not my type of guys. sigh~ at least, in my opinion, i think that being a dyke is better that having some mysterious boyfriend. seriously... i have no idea why... =_= at least, that friend, i am talking to, is my friend..

i am seriously lost in my way of life. i am confused and bored. everything i do, have no sense of urgency and it's dead. i am always thinking, and more thinking.. stuff like what's for me and etc. thoughts wonder... my sister said, why not go be a lesbian.. i actually agreed... she stared at me shocked. i swore, she was shocked. she didnt expect me to agree. i said i was confused. i am like standing in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of some crossroads waiting for directions. i need to counsel my friend. seek help from her.

i want to learn driving. perhaps, i might ask my friend along and see if she want to learn too. then, i will accompany her and we can go together! yay~~~ i have company... muahahahaha. i need to look for more books and restock my collection. my teacher once asked me, what's my favourite genre. i dont know. seriously. i loved romance. but, looking at books' romance, seeing those like you know those thick novels' covers where the guys are the most, twenty centimeters away from the lady's face... those books freaked me. i never touch those. in fact, i read horror and tradgic stories most. i have loads of mysteries too, but those were when i was young. i have several biographies. well, books.. is something i am not lacking. the trouble, i don't know what i am interested in. it's just that, i see that the cover page is nice, i just buy them or perhaps the summary is nice, which is damn rare... , i just grab them. otherwise, my friends introduced them to me. now that, i have graduated from my old school, my this current school, those classmates of mine hardly ever touch a book. in fact if they do, it's either religious or on games. both are not my type... they are those which would be dumped back onto the shelf without a second thought. back into my old school days, students with books are a common sight, in fact the thicker, the better. now, books equals bardworking and the thicker means nerd. i wanna go back~! to those good ol' days~! sigh~~~~


oooooo~ did i mention? today, i brought my sister's book to read. en route to the denist, there we this several people that i met so interesting. they slant their head just to read the book's summary. and if i didnt guess wrongly, they were captured by the book's author. that's why. i mean, if they wanted to know more about the book, all they got to do was to ask. they dont have to slant their heads and read it in such, comfortable manner. i dont get these people. it so happens that these people are westerns and they happened to be older than me. well, i understand that they are quite open with their thoughts and everything, so why cant they just open their mouths to ask? =_= perhaps, that they dont wanna disturb me from my reading, but... those times when i secretly caught them, i was observing the environment, relaxing my eyes. oh well, i still dont understand people~ =_=