i decided to blog after reading a manga. it's titled 'Bitter Virgin'. the title sounds highly perverted but inside, it's talking about the reality of pregnancy. haha~ i must say, i was touched and digested by how much the comic can convey. chia hui, if you see this, try to read it. it's nice and i can swear, there's no sex content though i can tell, you are highly interested in it.

the comic theme is on pregnancy. however, it's not on the bright side of pregnancy but on the darker sides. it also goes into the life of a pregnant lady- all negative point of view and also the complications of the life of one. so far, where i read till is only where this unfortunate girl whom experienced rape, sexual abuse had two times pregnancy. first, she got miscarriage. later, she gave birth but the child was placed for adoption. it's sad how she told her mother during her first pregnancy but was dismissed as lies. during her second pregnancy, where her mother found out due to the doctor there enlightening her, it was already too late.

later in the chapters, she came to know a classmate's sister who somehow became a single mother and had her child died during childbirth. it's sad... and depressing to know that reality is harsh and it never goes according to plans.

when a misfortune befalls onto anyone, one would always complain. why me? why does god choose me? well, the questions all tread somewhere that area. but. do they even think that there's someone who suffered more than you? i understand the feeling.. i did once too. haha~ i am not embarrassed to admit. ah~ but it's over and what else can i do but to admit my health and fate?

this comic, i really wish to introduce to all my female friends. seeing the title, i think i only dare to introduce it to my friend. i assure you, there's no sex scene.

at night, a BIG bee, wasp or whatever, entered my room and landed on my BED!!!! it all happened when i was reading, enjoying my time seeing mangas. that nerve of an insect dared to interrupt my reading and enjoyment~ damn it. it scared the wits of of me and my sister who was me at that moment. i had to drag my father from his bed into my room just to get rid of that pest! i don't fear any creepy crawlies but, this is my worst nightmare. don't ask me how i get to be scared of them. but, the closest memory i have to fear bees was perhaps, when i was young, my relatives and family keep bringing me to bee farms where swarms of them would stick onto your body. that is a nightmare. also, when i got older, i see news of bees killing people and also, documentary of bees. ah!!! i think i should tell people not to be so knowledgeable, in case they might me in future.

thanks to my school's schedule for the year, i am unable to follow my sister to japan with her friend. that's really disappointing. i was really looking forward to it. my sister wanted to go during november. unfortunately, i have classes. i can skip them, but i still have my exams. they intend to go from november till march? anyway, they wanted to stay there till school re-opens. i still have exams to sit and don't expect me to fly there and then come back just for the exams and fly there after all's complete. it's ridiculous! no way my parents would allow. plus, i am not some millionaire. my parents don't print money. my dream, to go overseas is CRUSHED. T_T

lately, i am into weird comics. i am reading comics that don't venture into the areas of heterosexual relationships. i am also reading comics where relationships are considered a taboo to the community. for example, teacher-student, sibling love and so on. to be honest, i am exposed to these when i was young. my mom loved adult comics and my friends whom i normally hang out during holidays and sometimes in school, love to read homosexual relationships. i find it fine, and pretty interesting. it's a pity, not much writers write them though. sigh~

one of the ways to enjoy life- never to bother about others' opinion about you or actions.

i find it rather true, as sometimes, i tend to ignore or be apathetic to my surroundings. i found that, the more you bother, your problems pile up and also, you tend to doubt yourself. i came across this idiom, 'it never rains but pours'.. it's ironic to know that a normal daily life can be quite troublesome.

it's been a while since i had last had some human contact with that petty aunt of mine. i must say that her guts are pretty thick. she can ask my mom for lunch or shopping. i understand her family's situation but my mom don't print money. the money are from my dad and i must emphasis on this one point in which made me loose all respect of her. you are related to me via blood and family relationships not via money. if you choose to be related to me via money, i can tell you, i am not interested in knowing you and over-joyed by knowing that i am related to you. it embarrasses me to know that i am somewhat related to you. this is disgusting.