my mom is in a foul mood today. she goes into a bulldozer mode the moment she sees something amiss. basically, everything that she does not go the way she want, she will scold or nag. i wonder what happened to her?

i didn't throw anything into the recycle bag these months, ever since the bag was changed. i don't like the fact that once you find some plastic inside, means it's me. yes, i admit.. that in the past, i used to throw that but since my mom found it annoying, i didn't throw plastics there anymore. i don't find what's wrong with it. after all, plastics can be recycled.

she found a plastic wrapper inside and she shouted for me and screamed that it was my fault, i am the culprit. that's lame. i don't understand why she can say such things? so if a jail convict were to be 'caught' again for his crimes means it's his fault without further inspection? there's no justice in this. then, why bother to say that people deserve another chance to turn over a new leaf? since people would most likely condemn criminals for their crime again.

it's one rainy day today. i had lost count on the number of times that it had rained. it's a nice weather for sleeping since it's so cooling. the sun's gone and there's a nice chilling zephyr blowing through my windows. ah~ it's not everyday that i can enjoy such nice weather and have it to continue all year round.

it's march now.. and soon, my holidays would be over. i am not looking forward for my school to start. school starts means different holiday schedule and my sister is graduating soon from secondary. different schedule and graduation means that i can't make it for my sister's end-of-year trip. it's annoying. i really want to follow her. i wonder why do they like to make difficult for me? is it that i have no fate to travel to japan with sister and friends? this is the second time that such things happen to me and the same area too!! i don't really have a good impression on japan.

does singapore have any culture? what's our culture and traditions? is our education going the correct way? are we even the right direction? singapore's literature books, purely written by local writers, are filled with singlish in their dialogs. the government condemn singlish, saying that it's bad influence and we have to speak good and proper english and chinese. is it even properly emphasized? i don't think so. also, to term our usage of language as singlish is somewhat off. malaysians too, use 'singlish' though it's slightly worst for most of them. our cultures are nothing but chinese and the different dialects cultures and also the different cultures of the different races. what's our culture and tradition then? what makes singapore outstanding? the long-term servicing prime minister and the position mentor-minister? seeing my sisters' textbooks made me really remember the past when i studied in those levels, i studied when i was really young- way before them. however, they are only covering the topic now, when i am in tertiary school. isn't late? i am only a year and four years younger than my two sisters. just a few years gap can cause such wide difference in the studies. is there even any standard in our education? we lack the freedom of speech. speaking what we think are often censored by the government and controlled by the government. even our actions are limited. how is our government going to move on and make our country a better place if, no one is allowed to make negative feedbacks? not everything is a bed of roses.

the country comes and forms because of its' people. there's no country without its' people. people can exist without a country so long as there's a home.