life is unique. i don't know whether to laugh or shake my head. i am seeing people traveling the path, i once took. it's very interesting to see that the actions and behavior observed is almost similar to what i once did and behaved. now, i do understand what my cousin meant by.. i was once like that. i seriously and truly understood the underlying meaning of her statement.

i am going to say and do nothing except to give advise once asked. i shall let people wonder as to who i am talking about. ^_^

i was out the entire day. had a terrible nightmare and woke early. i am having this awful and weird dream 3 times already. this is the last straw. i am complaining to my parents to do something about that toilet. if not, i can never sleep properly.

mom made me accompany her to the cooking class, she had wanted to attend badly. after which we had came home to put our things down. aunt cecelia called. well, she called in the morning saying that her husband is asking when is she treating him. i nearly wanted to take the phone and say, "i am looking forward in you treating me first." honestly! those idiots only call to ask for food. =_= they only call when help is needed or when they are "asking" for things. i really sympathize with my aunt. however, who sympathize my mom then? i never understand their thoughts. i think and hope that i can understand them one day.

anyways, my mom decided to follow my aunt and their family to changi just to eat some malay food. since my mom and i were too full to even eat, we only had drinks there. they ate alot. and i meant alot. our next stop was the ikea near by. they wanted to go to courts to see furniture. they wanted to buy a sofa. they asked for my opinion regarding about the sofa they had chosen. i don't like changes. i am very satisfied with my current sofa. of course, the comments i gave were very. . . . . . awful. we also spent some time seeing at some electronics. well, there's nothing much to see since, we are not buying anything. my aunt and their family were very roudy there especially dephanie. well, i can't spell her name and can't be bothered to.

aunt florence called. we decided to join them for some feast. i don't know how to call that meal. dinner or supper? aunt cecelia's family ate again. this time, more than the last. me and my mom were drinking and talking away. seriously, if i keep seeing my relatives eat, i would seriously lost all cravings and my appetite. i would even detest food.

after all the eating, there's this huge discussion on some idiot which caused really loads of problems. that oh-so-infamous guy. i think i don't even need to type that name and the entire world knows. he caused me loads of problems. my sisters may not know it, but anything my parents found that their behaviour is not desirable or not up to standard, i would have this special lecture from my parents. i would have to face lectures, discussion and meetings. this is bloody annoying. all their talks have their hidden meaning - talk to my sisters, enlightening them. try to divert them to their correct path. i am really sick and tired from all this rubbish. it is vert tiring and stressing. i mean, i had to monitor and keep track. my sisters are not doing me a favour too. if sam reads this, in which she would since, i purposely wrote it here. i am not so stupid to type something in which i don't want anyone to read. i think she would know what i wanna impliment. i surrender and give up.

leaving idiotic and problemetic men aside, think of wonderful thoughts instead. depressing over such unbelievable problems is so foolish.

ah!!!! i just discovered.... my fanfics!!! none are updated and it's over a period of 3 days. what are those authors trying to do?! kill me? curses.. poor me..

hmmm, how can one be so similar to others and yet be different at the same time? this never fails to amaze me. i mean, the above point is vaild in families. don't talk about friends and outsiders. friends can be together due to the similarties but they fall out due to their differences. then pray tell, what bonds people together? since, friendship and romance all falls between that point. no matter how we build our trust and maintain it, there's a possibility of failure. humans would betray but not animals. why bother to have friends and suffer? i don't understand. arguments between parents and children, siblings, friends, relatives including in courtship. if the connection between people is so fragile then, how do we judge which and what connections to make and destroy? this is confusing.

my eyes are bad these days. i've been seeing things in which can't be seen or either, just a blink and the thing's gone. i need to get my eye checked. sigh~ it must be insufficient sleep. i am very tired.

i am very annoyed with one of my friend. she's nice and cool. it's just that, i had reminded her several times and told her that i wanted accompany to take the bbt. please tell me when she is taking. she decided to do me a favor by taking the test without INFORMING me. i never knew that my friend was so kind-hearted. or i am a terrible person? so much so that no one wants to accompany me?

i am writing what comes in mind. my blog is very untidy. but who cares. it's late and since, i had nothing else to do for the day, i shall call it a day. i am really very tired.